Soy Vay!

Dear Braedyn,

Tomorrow (well actually in 22 hrs) you will be 2 months old. My how time flies. Every day you change just a little bit more. Today was the first day you barely fussed and was the first time you sat for about an hour at a time just taking in the world around you. I cannot believe how different you are today than yesterday. Your daddy and I had so much fun sitting on the couch with you and giving you kisses, and you just didn't know who to look at. You kept turning your head from one to the other and it was the most adorable thing ever. It was one of the best moments of these last two months ever and I know there are going to be so many more of them.

So for the past two weeks I've been battling on what to do with your fussiness. I thought it was just normal infant stuff, but I've come to find out something in my diet has just not been agreeing with you. Every few days I would give you a bit of formula and you'd seem to be okay, but then the next feeding I'd put you right back to my breast. And then you'd get extremely fussy. I'm sorry to say, I wish I could say you never cried, but it's true you did. But now we know why! It wasn't you, it was me! It was what I was ingesting that has been interfering with your happiness. Today I gave you only formula, soy formula to be exact, and my what a difference it made! I'm still not ready to completely give up breastfeeding, so I am still pumping, but I have to do what's best for you. If soy formula is going to make you feel better than that's what I have to do. Many people will say I'm being selfish and should change my diet, however, that could take weeks to find out exactly what it is that's bothering you. Unfortunately, I only have 4 more weeks at home with you, and I want these next few weeks to be the best yet.

Braedyn, happy 2 months! Thank you for making my all my dreams and wishes come true!

Love,

Your mommy