Sick Baby Girl

My darling,

You are sick. And I don't know what is wrong with you. I can guess because of wonderful things like the internet and books, but I am no doctor. For the past several days you have barely eaten, you are screaming uncontrollably at random times, drooling like crazy, have white patches on the inside of your mouth, and I just am so sad for you. I am pretty sure you have Thrush and you may have just developed acid reflux. I am told that the majority of infants do not react to thrush, however, I am pretty sure that is what is bothering you. How can it not? You have these patches all over the inside of your mouth and on the roof of it and you don't want to eat. Like I said, I am no doctor, but come on. So to the doctor we will go and I am hoping and praying that he has some wonderful advice and is able to give us a magic medicine to make you all better. Daddy and I just want to cry when you are so upset. I truly haven't seen you react this way since you were born. I'm sorry you're in so much pain my darling, beautiful baby. I never want to see you hurt.

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Back to Work

So last week I went back to work. Honestly, I thought it was going to be a lot harder than it was. I thought I was going to cry my eyes out several times throughout the day, especially saying goodbye to my precious one, however, I didn't. I realized that Braedyn is in the best hands possible (I already knew that) and that my wonderful mother-in-law and my second mother, Mary, only have her best interest in mind. I am truly lucky to have these wonderful women in my life who want to take care of my precious baby. So the week went by and everything was great...until Friday afternoon when my gorgeous sweet baby wouldn't even look at me. She gave all these beautiful adorable smiles to Mary and my parents and completely ignored me. I was sad. It was at that time that I felt like I don't want to go to work anymore. I hate the fact that someone else gets to watch my precious love all day long and play with her, while I don't. However, all was made better when Saturday morning I went to get the gorgeous baby out of bed and I got the biggest smile along with kicking legs. Oh how my heart melted.

I still am not 100% into this work thing, though I love my job, I just don't want to miss all these amazing milestones. The countdown has begun...17 more wake ups!!!

Practice Run

Today we had a practice run of me going back to work and you going to Nonny and Poppy's. It wasn't as hard as I thought. Don't get me wrong, I so didn't and don't want to leave you, however, I realized when you are with Mary it is out of my hands. I know Mary will take the best care of you possible and spoil you rotten. She's going to overfeed you, though you're pretty good at showing when you are and aren't hungry, and she's going to make sure you nap in her arms. Even though I would prefer you sleep in the crib, Mary hasn't gotten the swaddling thing down yet, and until she does, in her arms you will sleep. Which is better than getting no sleep at all.

By they way, you are now officially 3 months and 2 days old, and 13 weeks old. You are giggling and smiling every time you see mine or your daddy's faces and you are only having one wake up a night. Wow, you are incredible and I have loved every day of these past 13 weeks. You are my world and I can't wait until we get to spend every day this summer together. I love love love love love you!